I gave myself excuses. lots and lots of excuses. maybe you didn't read it. maybe you trying to see it words by words, that's why it took you soo long. maybe you are looking for better words to say it. but the excuses have become excuses already. is this your choice? it hurts but i'll try to accept it. somehow.
Do you realised how i feel now? am i really just someone that pass by your life? someone that does not even deserve a tiny bit of consideration?? am i that bad to you? huh. i wonder how my picture looks like in your eyes. do you know, i bruise my ego for that. for me to type that kind of message was a big miracle already.
for such a long time, i finally extend my hand. i pour myself out and this is the outcome??
beggars cant be picky, rite. So, i'll accept your decisions. I'm sorry. I have been wrong. I have been acting like a royal pain in the ass for such a long time. I don't deserve it anyway. FINE! you can throw me out. out of your sight. out of your mind. better yet, out of your life! it's not the first time in mylife anyway. I'll live on. bruised and bleeding. but it will heal. one day.
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