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okay...seisly. smthg is wrong with me! feel like wanna talk so much bout all this with fatah. text him all night yet still not relieved.(sorry ganggu your family time.)

why? what i am thinking?? what i am doubting about?? am i hurt emotionally..or tired physically? or is it homesick??  guess the quest has started for me to search and find out all by myself. 

These are the times i really wish i still have him in my contact list. if i am not super idiot, i wont delete him out of anger or shame. ergh, now i sounds like i'm wailing in self pity. GREAT!! just so damn great.