fall is it worth it? the stain?

B said aku perasan bagus. aku ni bajet baik. and probably others as well. *sigh*

i know, im the one who start the act. so, i should at least anticipate this. i should at least expect this to happen. sooner or later.

and aku x harap org utk memahami. because everything is a build-up emotion that i kept for long. and amazingly, the raw emotion has disappear. The remaining one are cold and numbness. 

biarlah apa org nak kata. aku fham situasi aku and k faham kenapa kau buat mcam tu. tapi kau cuma org luar yg berfikir pkai otak kau sja. x pikir perasaan dan intepretasi org lain. kau rasa tindakan kau betul. lain org lain cara. tindakan kau mungkin betul utk org lain tpi tidak untuk aku. 

LIFE - LOVE

life is ironic. it flows in a way we dont plan to. unexpected things happen. one move can change everything.

we cant help who we fall in love with. its even surprising when you found out that everything you want is not according to plan.

love come in the least expected place amd situation. you had two options. First one is accept it with open arms. Second one is you can let it go. Its YOUR CHOICE.

Live the life you want and love the way you live. 

Dear No One - Tori Kelly

Dear No One

I like being independent
Not so much of an investment
No one to tell me what to do
I like being by myself
Don't gotta entertain anybody else
No one to answer to...

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when it's cold
Got that young love even when we're old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end

So if you're out there I swear to be good to you
But I'm done lookin', for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You'll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song
Ooo-OhOh

I don't really like big crowds
I tend to shut people out
I like my space, yeah
But I'd love to have a soulmate
And God'll give him to me someday
And I know it'll be worth the wait, oh

So if your out there I swear to be good to you
But I'm done lookin' (But I'm done lookin'), for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You'll be here, but for now
Dear no one (Dear nobody) this is your love song (Ooo-Oooh)

Sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when it's cold
Got that young love even when we're old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end

So if you're out there I swear to be good to you
But I'm done lookin' (I'm done lookin'), for my future someone (Ooo-Yeah)
Cause when the time is right
You'll be here, but for now
Dear no one (Dear Nobody) this is your love song (This is your love song)
Dear no one, no need to be searchin', no
Dear no one...
Dear no one...
Dear No one, this is your love song

CURSED

it just a piece of shit. a round of shit and curses that she put around her finger. but that piece of shit that she still keep till now symbolise my dumbness. symbolised her betrayal to me. her betrayal to me-her bestfriends. opps, pardon me, her EX-bestfriend!

i know... its years ago kinda things. but if she was sorry for what happen, she will at least TRY to understand MY feeling. have a heart to protect my feeling. if she was at least a decent friend, she would throw tht cursed thing away long time ago. not valued it as a friendship token! if she valued that as token of friendship, then she valued him more than me. its over!  DONE!

and here i am - assumed and thought about everything. huh, what can i do when every your action gave the same perception? the same idea. the same bullshit. 

i believe that action speaks louder than words. your action is enough to me already. no need to come and brag to me on all the good things you did. because words comes from the lying mouth. but your act, your deed... it comes from your heart and your mind. thats what i need.