My relationship goal

I always wish for a family arranged marriage. Perhaps because my mom and dad are one. N my pk ngah n mk ngah. And also pk su n mk su.

Arranged marriage or marriage almost like that. (aka yg seangkatan dgnnya). It was pure. I feel like it is proper. Kena dgn fitrah. When a guy feel and know that he is ready. And he goes directly to wali and ask for her hand of marriage. It is a manly act! A prove that he is brave enough. It doesnt matter whether he knows her before that or not. But at same time, the girl should also make herself ready. It has to be two way. Not one way only.

My brother, he asked my mom to search a girl to be his wife. My mom asked for my aunt's help. And they did find one girl. And both my brother and the girl met in a cafe. For the first time! Never talk or msg-ing before that. Just see each other pictures. In one evening, both sits together face to face and talk. Asking bout each others' details - biodata bla bla bla. I was there. I kinda being a penganggu aka moderator. Well, we - the girl's friend and i are the moderatorS. But overall, with the teasing and asking questions and laugh - it was....... Unexplained feeling. Awkward. Sacred.

I kinda envy my brother and the girl (she is not to be named YET). Why i envy them? Maybe because i reallly wish i was in her shoes. Because i really love that. And i really want that....

U probably think, ehh afi ni nenggatal nk kahwin betul... Hahaha. Nope. Im not that desprate utk kwin. My heart currently are mending itself after being broken and smashed to pieces. Kalau ttbe ada org ketuk pintu rmh and berbalas pantun dgn mak abah nk merisik ak, sah sah ak tolak. I dont want to make anyone as a rebound. Nope! Never!

But.... What i really feel is..........I rlly apreciated the beauty of arranged marriage. The beauty of love AFTER marriage. Bila kita jaga pergaulan. Berkwin bukan sekadar nafsu... Now THAT is a wow!!

Amik cth my parents. Both x pnh kenal before kahwin. It was arranged marriage. And despite of kekurangan n kelemahan each other, they try to appreciate each other kebolehan n kelebihan. After all rintangan, they did it.

damsel-in-distress-to-be

i wore heels when im going back to malaysia. purpose? it give me extra height. and i can easily put my bags on overhead compartment without help. u might think im exagerating..but hey, im 35kg. coming from me, i think its huge enough, rite! 

but there is one time, the overhead compartment is verrry big. my bag goes wayyy down and i cant reach it.. so, i ask for help. thank god there is a guy sit beside me. my saviour...

and masa tu jgak..... terpikir. slama ni i am very independent. whenever possible, i will try my best not to ask for help. cause i feel such a failure if i do so... or i become a burden to others. i dont want to be a damsel-in-distress... and maybe because of that i become boring. easy. and maybe sbb tu lah, all this thing happen. 

and im tired...maybe lepas ni, no more tough girl 24/7..... sekali sekala nak jgk jd org yg memerlukan pertolongan. and probably a prince charming will come and save the day. if im lucky, the prince charming will stay. stay with me. and probably for forever. 

sooo, thats why for the title --> damsel-in-distress-to-be